I have no idea where the time has gone.
To catch you up on some stuff. Char is still MIA. She is now telling anyone that wants to listen that she wants to come home and that we kicked her out. We have asked that she talk to us about what happened and she refuses to do so and says that she does not know what to say or that she has to think of what to say to us. That started about two to three weeks ago. Her last email to me stated that she was fine, had an apartment with friends and had a nanny job. All lies. She has also told people that she went to New York for school, but had a bad experience and came back. Another lie.
I am not sure what is going on with her. We went to Camp Cutler this past weekend and she was there working (which I was very happy to see). It was so hard being so close (the closest in three months) and not being able to do anything. I would like to know what is going on in her head. Jaime and I have both said we would support her in anything she wanted to do.
Part of me wishes I could just be in a room with her, but the other part knows that I am never going to get the full story. Everyone that she has talked to gets sucked into her lies. If only I could have a magical power that would let me know if she is being sincere. She has told us lie after lie. I have no idea what to believe now.
We still have not started the evaluation for Toria. We are just waiting for insurance approval. Wait, wait, wait. That is another reason why we need to resolve a lot of things with Char before she can move back home. Anytime you bring up Char's name, Toria gets really anxious. We are finding out that Char talked Toria into taking the blame for a lot of stuff. I feel awful about that (not saying that Toria was always 100% innocent, no way she had some input in some things). Right now she is doing okay. She had a little bump in the road with her grades, but we are hoping that is getting ironed out.
Jaimison is doing good. It broke my heart that he does not want anything to do with Char. He had no interest in seeing her at Cutler and even put down in a project that he had one sister.
We have tried over and over again for Char to have a relationship with Toria and Jaimison. We have told her that we understand that she is upset with us, but it is not fair to the both of them that she is ignoring them.
I hope that Char finds what she is looking for. I personally do not think she wants to come home. She has had multiple times that she could have talked to us. I really don't know what happened. The week before she left I thought we had really good talk. I explained to her why I needed her to call if she was going to be late (so she did not wake us up), that I was excited for her going to MCC, volunteering at the Middle School if possible after camp and stupid me believed that she was happy and excited too. I guess I got played yet again. I don't know what happened in that week. In one week I lost my daughter. Maybe it was happening for a while and I just could not or would not see it. All I know is that I don't know who this person is.
If you see her on Facebook or even in person, please do not bring any of this up. Some of my friends have and she will not talk to them. She has pretty much ignored anyone that has contact with us.
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